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Kids. God bless kids. Now before we think that my post is against kids, know that I was a live in nanny. I loved my little girl to death and spent all my time with her. I also took care of my friends children. I have been a babysitter since I was 13 maybe sooner. Once I watched a kid, I usually watched them till they no longer needed babysitting. I love kids.

HOWEVER Trent and I go back and forth on the issue of wanting them for ourselves. I know we are not alone in this battle. I spoke with an old friend the other day, she has been married 3 years now and she is going through the same thing. She mentioned she is in small group and every couple in there is going through the same thing. You have a bunch of Christian girls, who went to college, got married, and really most days… could not care less about the baby in the baby stroller (yes I changed it).  What is up with that?  Why don’t we want kids?

My mom (who really is the salt of the Earth, but the comment she makes will not make her seem like that) has told me and my sister “Just have dogs, kids are too much heart ache”  Yeah, Thanks MA! Haha We are best friends now, just so you know. BUT I was a bad teenager.  Either way, there is no pressure from my parents to have kids, they have great neices and nephews that they love and hang out with.  They also spend time with neighbor kids and stuff, so I do not think they feel they are missing out.

There is just no pressure to have them. I like my life and I do not know what I would do with a kid.. well I know what I would do. I would either work from home or decide to leave my job entirely..

Either way I am starting to have guilt.  God is so about kids. He says they are a gift – one that I am actively not seeking.  What if one day I want a kid and God tells me no? What if He is like, “Hey, you said you would handle this on your own timeline and did not look to me for the perfect timeline. Looks like your timeline was WRONG!”  I pray about it often. I tell God if he wants me to get pregnant it is going to have to be from HIM (not in the virgin Mary kind of way, but the … ooops kind of way) but either way Why are so many woman questioning if we need kids or not? 

 

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